Okay, so where do you start something like this?
I'm not even sure if I'm writing to someone or just writing for the sake of writing!
I imagine it will take various forms every time!
As an introduction, because I'm sure at some point someone is going to read this...
My name is Tracy, I am a now 40 year old woman, separated after a 16 year marriage to a man that I married for all the wrong reasons!
I've titled this blog "A Million Unbroken Pieces" because I'm tired of thinking of myself as broken...
so perhaps I'm just a complex woman with a million pieces...
I have had what has been described by those who know me best as a hard life.
I was physically & mentally abused as a child, by my step mother primarily & some by my father.
I of course went on to fall into abusive relationships...
After ending my marriage, which was not good for either of us or our children (3)
I fell apart... a break down I suppose.
Panic or anxiety attacks, depression, a real hard time!
After taking just over a year to work on myself,
I've learned a great deal, how could I not?
I am so proud of what I've learned about me, about why I am who I am, why I've made the choices I've made in my life.
I at no time am absolving myself of any responsibility in my life choices,
however, those of us emotionally & mentally abused know how we live up to our expectations!
We get called fat often enough we'll become it!
Call me stupid enough, I'll believe it!
Tell me I can't do or don't deserve better,
I won't try for it!
We live what we're taught!
I have a few things in my life that I am passionate about,
first & foremost is music...
I assure you I'm pretty much always listening to music!
I LOVE lyrics!
In fact don't be surprised if I just post song lyrics here some days,
its just something that touches or moves me!
Second is photography,
I'm really new to the photography thing,
I have a wonderful camera,
one I'm still getting to know better.
She's with me all the time!
(Yes, my camera is a she, and she has a name!)
I am a very open minded person,
laid back,
HONEST to a fault!
I am DONE beyond done with anger!
I have NO room in my life for it,
spent 19 years angry all the time,
over it!
I want love, calm, & peace in my life now!
I need to avoid people who trigger the anger,
my ex & my father are these types of people.
I left the ex, can't leave my father!
Good thing he lives in another province & I only see him once a year!
Anyway, I'm going to sign off now, I expect I'll be filling in blanks as I go...
I'm so excited about doing this, I hope this provides the outlet I suspect it will!
I'm not even sure if I'm writing to someone or just writing for the sake of writing!
I imagine it will take various forms every time!
As an introduction, because I'm sure at some point someone is going to read this...
My name is Tracy, I am a now 40 year old woman, separated after a 16 year marriage to a man that I married for all the wrong reasons!
I've titled this blog "A Million Unbroken Pieces" because I'm tired of thinking of myself as broken...
so perhaps I'm just a complex woman with a million pieces...
I have had what has been described by those who know me best as a hard life.
I was physically & mentally abused as a child, by my step mother primarily & some by my father.
I of course went on to fall into abusive relationships...
After ending my marriage, which was not good for either of us or our children (3)
I fell apart... a break down I suppose.
Panic or anxiety attacks, depression, a real hard time!
After taking just over a year to work on myself,
I've learned a great deal, how could I not?
I am so proud of what I've learned about me, about why I am who I am, why I've made the choices I've made in my life.
I at no time am absolving myself of any responsibility in my life choices,
however, those of us emotionally & mentally abused know how we live up to our expectations!
We get called fat often enough we'll become it!
Call me stupid enough, I'll believe it!
Tell me I can't do or don't deserve better,
I won't try for it!
We live what we're taught!
I have a few things in my life that I am passionate about,
first & foremost is music...
I assure you I'm pretty much always listening to music!
I LOVE lyrics!
In fact don't be surprised if I just post song lyrics here some days,
its just something that touches or moves me!
Second is photography,
I'm really new to the photography thing,
I have a wonderful camera,
one I'm still getting to know better.
She's with me all the time!
(Yes, my camera is a she, and she has a name!)
I am a very open minded person,
laid back,
HONEST to a fault!
I am DONE beyond done with anger!
I have NO room in my life for it,
spent 19 years angry all the time,
over it!
I want love, calm, & peace in my life now!
I need to avoid people who trigger the anger,
my ex & my father are these types of people.
I left the ex, can't leave my father!
Good thing he lives in another province & I only see him once a year!
Anyway, I'm going to sign off now, I expect I'll be filling in blanks as I go...
I'm so excited about doing this, I hope this provides the outlet I suspect it will!
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