Today I read every blog entry on here.
I mean I always read back once I post it,
and typically I read it out loud and cry.
Reading it out loud is very cathartic for me,
its like putting it out into the universe for everyone to hear.
Perhaps that's why I've chosen this method of blogging as opposed to a personal online journal!
Putting it out into the universe is like a release for me!
So with reading everything back,
something occurred to me.
I did something to attempt to fill my empty well for myself last summer,
after I'd finished dating my toxic friend.
I had written out a page of affirmations for myself.
It took some searching to find it, but I located it,
going to share it here.
Its going to sound a lot like that little girl standing in front of her mirror saying I love this... I love that... but not quite!
I titled it,
What I know to be true about me.
loyal friend
good mother
loving
caring
young at heart
boisterous
affectionate
empathetic
positive
optimistic
generous
tender
honest
sincere
selfless
kind
intelligent
funny
trusting
trustful
confident
strong
calm
musical
artistic
appreciative
excellent aunt
family oriented
sensitive
silly
humourous
emotional
admirable
leader
powerful
deserving
friendly
outgoing
thoughtful
spiritual
tender
open
respectful
straight forward
forgiving
adventurous
insightful
expressive
SURVIVOR!
I am a survivor,
I've survived a lot,
yet I still posses these characteristics!
Perhaps because of my difficult life, not in spite of it,
I posses these characteristics!
I bring all of this to my relationships & friendships.
I should expect the same from others!
I need to read this list more often!
I need to believe these things to be true every day!
I know, logically, I posses these characteristics daily,
yet I struggle to find them some days.
I imagine some day in the future,
I'll sit down to read my blog and come across this one.
When that day comes I hope I can see how far I've come.
I hope I can dip into my own full well for any self assurance,
self acceptance, love, kindness that I seek.
One day!
I mean I always read back once I post it,
and typically I read it out loud and cry.
Reading it out loud is very cathartic for me,
its like putting it out into the universe for everyone to hear.
Perhaps that's why I've chosen this method of blogging as opposed to a personal online journal!
Putting it out into the universe is like a release for me!
So with reading everything back,
something occurred to me.
I did something to attempt to fill my empty well for myself last summer,
after I'd finished dating my toxic friend.
I had written out a page of affirmations for myself.
It took some searching to find it, but I located it,
going to share it here.
Its going to sound a lot like that little girl standing in front of her mirror saying I love this... I love that... but not quite!
I titled it,
What I know to be true about me.
loyal friend
good mother
loving
caring
young at heart
boisterous
affectionate
empathetic
positive
optimistic
generous
tender
honest
sincere
selfless
kind
intelligent
funny
trusting
trustful
confident
strong
calm
musical
artistic
appreciative
excellent aunt
family oriented
sensitive
silly
humourous
emotional
admirable
leader
powerful
deserving
friendly
outgoing
thoughtful
spiritual
tender
open
respectful
straight forward
forgiving
adventurous
insightful
expressive
SURVIVOR!
I am a survivor,
I've survived a lot,
yet I still posses these characteristics!
Perhaps because of my difficult life, not in spite of it,
I posses these characteristics!
I bring all of this to my relationships & friendships.
I should expect the same from others!
I need to read this list more often!
I need to believe these things to be true every day!
I know, logically, I posses these characteristics daily,
yet I struggle to find them some days.
I imagine some day in the future,
I'll sit down to read my blog and come across this one.
When that day comes I hope I can see how far I've come.
I hope I can dip into my own full well for any self assurance,
self acceptance, love, kindness that I seek.
One day!
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